What started as a small break the beginning of April has now ended up being a two month hiatus from sewing. That is not to say I haven't been busy or productive in other ways...
This sort of thing happens to us artists, I'm told. After a creative burst or productive frenzy, we simply burn less brightly. Sometimes there's barely a flicker left to our creative wick. Then, when the mind is relaxed and our weary souls are left to relax and rejuvenate - magical things begin to happen. We re-awaken with new inspiration.
For me, that is especially true. As much as I would like to be pushing out as much artistic stuff as I could possibly eek out of a day, a week, a month... I lack the mental, emotional and physical stamina to keep up a steady pace. Instead, the cycle is almost manic and then flat - stalled - no motivation. Occasionally I get the blues and for sure, I'm truly "blah" but wouldn't say it's truly a depression. I used to fight this downtime in my younger days, either being embarrassed or angry at becoming "checked out" or feeling incapable of being my usual upbeat, energetic and highly productive self. But then I began to recognize the pattern. And I began to understand what was happening during my "down time" and what types of transformations were able to occur during down time that could not possibly take place during "up" time. Like the process of transforming from a caterpillar to butterfly, certain changes can only take place when the mind is allowed to be quiet and relaxed.
I have enjoyed these past two months. Taking the camera and focusing on close-up shots, I got down low to the ground and discovered all types of beautiful life forms that I would not have noticed from "up there" while being all busy and "productive" with what I usually do. I discovered the joys of small beading projects and created a collection of pretty keychain charms. Then I branched out into making some chunky necklaces out of turquoise and coral and silver and ... whatever suits my fancy.
Soon I will emerge from that cocoon. Not today - but I feel the need to stretch and push on my self-imposed boundaries. Hopefully I will be as bright and beautiful as a butterfly when you see me again.
